In the hearts of our mind, we miss it with regret ..

Ok.. i dun wan any1 to console or comfort me after reading this .. not necessary.. ya not at all .. juz feel free to read..
Written ("In the hearts of our mind, we miss it with regret.") in P5.. at the age of 11..i rmb it was pasted on the notice board that time..i was so proud of it..I always remind myself..not to miss out things before I regret.. but this time it does..it happened

17th of June.. as normal.. it was juz a normal day..i thought..and the whole day carried on juz like how it was..and den ..

6.00 am The next day i wake up.. it was already 18th of June..my father told me .. out of 13 messages he got..the 0nly one which is right .. it was sent by my eldest bro.. "Happy Fathers Day".. tat morning i realise..i dint even say this to my father.. i really felt bad.. after all these years of care he has taken of .. to me .. i dint even did my job as a child..how i wish i could turn back time to dat day.. and wish him a Happy Fathers Day...

But this cant be done..time cannot be turn back.. thats why i say..when u do something or u forget to do something .. time wont wait for u .. nothing will .. tats wad it means .. we miss it with regrets ..

On the way to sch in my fathers car.. and of coz .. him driving .. that seems to be the longest and the saddest ride of my life..i dunno why i felt so sad.. i was wondering..on the 17th of June, Fathers Day.. upon the whole day im doing my work and sleeping .. resting...
eating .. .and doin other stuffs.. was he waiting for the few words to come out from my mouth .. "Happy Fathers Day" was he ?.. was he disappointed .. ?.. i dunno ..did i disappoint him ? i felt i have neglected my family.. although they piss me off sometimes .. but they are my close ones.. forever.. who truly loves me i guess.. i love them..

And so the ride continue.. i feel like crying.. but i cant .. im a man now .. a grown up now.. cant possibly cry in front of my father.. tats silly.. and stupid... my mind cant be set until i heard this song .. Qing Tian .. it rested my mind

I open the door when i've reach my school.. i wanted to say the 3 words to him.. but juz couldnt.. coz its not the actual day already.. tat defeats the meaning .. eh ?.. .. i wanted to say Dad (" Fu Qing Jie Kuai le =) ")

Few days back,
i saw the foto when i was young.. i miss the time.. everything wasnt so complicated.. nth was..not even myself.. i realise the older we grow.. the more complicated things are.. and also the ppl around us.. its hard to know wad they are thinkin sometimes..its hard..

but we have to be strong..few years later.. we are going the face the society.. the ugly and pretty reality..what are these small setbacks that we are facing.. compared to the adults now?meaning the future us ?.. its nth.. so kids?.. or maybe some frens of mine.. stop being foolish to be probing about things which are bad now..or some minor problem which u think its killing u now.. its not the end of the world..the ironical part is...its juz the beginning... take care everyone =)