2nd April .. not a day i expect to be..

It is easy to be a Captain..but it is not easy to be a good one..so far I'm nth..
I rmb having tears when competition ends..we lost..Jishen told me a good leader never shows the weaker side..even if how angry i am..how sad i am..i shld control.. i shld ....

Today went back to training... and the disappointed part is tat .. even at 3.30pm..there isnt even half of the people there..all the people dragging their feets.. hoping that there wont be trainin anymore..some of them playing..ive nver seen this happening when i was in Sec One..they are seniors and they are setting this kind of example..im juz exasperated by their behaviour .. some of them chnged totally.. the UNITY TT spirit is no longer there le..its my fault i guess..i didnt carry on the good quality of leadership which Jishen Pak lam have.but the feeling really sux when i am suppose see a team liddat.. or shld i say 4 teams .. all 4...

I had tears dropping down when talking to them..coz i still can rmber the day we lost..and we had nth alrdy..i still can rmber how deep the cut was..the major part..is the unity of our team..the teamwork..the spirit .. no longer there..its not like wad i had last year..where everybody is so united..so unbeatable..so strong on the inside.. such a strong spirit..now it seems to be gone..some of them dun even care..even when they lost..

Since ive alrdy step down.. i guess i will cast aside all these..dunno wad the team will be.. juz hope the situation wont worsen..focus on my Os. its juz too hard to let go.. i juz face eveything so seriously.. somethings are hard to let go.. and somethings cant be let go..

Also..at 30th of April our family are suppose to move out..and by 1st of May..this house is suppose to be vacant..good game..now no house to stay =.=..no com to do work.. to chat .. to listen to songs.. and have to travel..problems one after another..hope it wont affect my Os ... hMmm gg ..

Thx for her accompany and comforting me and cheering me up on the phone...I'll be strong.. cannot be like this anymore..jia you .. hope she takecare too ..