Friday, July 17, 2009

Always Been Lucky

Seriously I shld be grateful .. for all that I have.. but I just can't help to forget bout things tat are really bothering me.. I'm always lucky to have someone there to save my ass and help me..I guess the rest is really up to my own.. its the final lap..

Bro(not my siblings) help me in my studies.. really thanks alot.. and he lent me money for my tuition.. but im not sure if the tuition is worth it and whether im able cope..

Was with alot of doubts when I held the money on my hand.. really didn't know wad to say... but feel thankful for all he had done for me..

I will do my best .. but honestly.. my confidence level is really really low.. especially knowing that I've miss out so much stuffs especially for econs and chem..

But.. guess all i can do now is try my best..

Really feel very guilty..

Thank you.. thanks alot.. your name will always be in my heart.. I won't let you down..

Science Stream(MAJOR in MATH)
Engineering
Business

I wanna be a teacher.. I wanna be an actor.. I wanna be a business man..

I wanna do well to repay to all the ppl who had put in a lot of effort to nurture and educate me..

The Drive to work hard.. harder..

Delwin .. Please keep on running.. for everyone.. for yourself..

Friday, July 10, 2009

=D

This is a pasted data Gui Ping Send me bout me.. lol.. some parts are damn true..

He always let other people walk in front of him, but he will get there first. He is a very careful guy and small obstacles won't make him fall easily even he thinks life is a very serious matter. He is as romantic as any other Zodiac. He could look gentle, but inside he is as strong as steel.
Once he determine to do something, he is serious about doing it well. He will keep any pressure or insult deep down inside without showing emotion. You will NEVER SEE HIS EMOTION of burden or disappointment and always wonder what he thinks or feels. He will well kept his feeling.

You will never see a guy in this Zodiac involving in other people business.

He always concern with his own business. Sometimes he can be talkative, but he will never give anyone advice if he has not been asked. If you ask for advice, he will certainly give you one. He respects elderly and senior, so you will see he is the type who visit his parents steadily or often.

He is a slightly shy but also a stubborn person. He will find many ways to make you happy when you are with him, till you realize he is the important person for you. Once he is in the 'Power Position', he will use his power gently. He is a good leader and 'Gentleness' is one of his effective method for exploiting his power. It is although he is borne to be a leader. He never hide his ambition, and he is a workaholic. he will not take any position that he has no control. He will work very hard to reach his goal and satisfaction.

Compliment from his boss or superior are never enough for him, he want his deserved reward. His deep insecurity make him reach and collecting valuable things, and this you may think he is stingy. Actually he could easily spending money to buy things, traveling or pay for things that makes him happy and he think necessary for his need. He care what other people think of him and want to get good comments or compliments.

Outside he looks like stone and steel, but inside he is a fragile person. He will hide and cover up weak emotion and his sadness in order to maintain and keep up his 'Image'. One method of cover up you could easily notice is suddenly if he is quiet, cold, or act very strong or very secure. Often, he feels insecure, even he is serious about his life and his own surrounding.

This is the man who never hurry to get marry, so hardly sit back and regret about his marriage later. If he gets marry, he need to be very certain and very sure. It will take a long time for such decision, so if you tell him that you are 'breaking up' , you better forget him for good because he will never coming back.

He always keep his promise. If he said he will meet you in your place in 2 hours then he will be there, unless there is a serious accident or unavoidable things happen. He hate people who is late for date or any appointment.

He like to think woman should be a follower and take care of family and working is a man duty. He does not like to compete with his girl friend or his wife at work because competition already exist with himself and other people. He will be very proud if he can afford and care for his family. Do not try to over power him or insult him, he can not stand it. He likes to be in control of every things, every situations.

He like a 'Classy Woman' ,if she also comes from a good family then it is a Plus. It will make him feel proud and very ego about her status. Flashy type of woman , forget it. He like a perfect or a nearly perfect housewife. He tend to be possessive. He will not tell you if he is mad at you, but will act very moody to show you instead.(OMG so true)

He like to hear sweet word and compliment so you can get his interest that way.(ABSOLUTELY) If he approaches you to ask you out, do not act too stubborn or fooling around too much. He will get tired and just disappear. He has to feel confident when he is around you, so knowing this fact you should know what to do, right!

If you want him, you have to make him feel like he is the most important person for you. He likes a kind hearted woman , polite and can get along with his family. When he feels sad, do not leave him alone, but be very supportive. Kind words and your smile will win him over, so this strong man will be like a chicken in your palm.

I basically thinks that this describes me TOTALLY
Red words are exceptionally True
Red words with larger font is OMGodly TRUE
Red words with larger fonts with CAPS is just .. lol..

If you are a woman who knows that I'm like this before you read this..
Please me mine =D

Saturday, July 4, 2009

Comfort.. how to?

Geez man.. i really dunno how to comfort my dad.. esp when we seldom talk.. like.. i dunno how to tok to him like this..

This was wad happen..

My dad and this guy are gd frens
And one day my dads boss wanted to promote him and ask him bout it..
Den my dad sort of like wanna give it to his friend(not too sure why.. but he might need the promotion more den my dad?..)
So he ask the boss to give it to that guy..
but that guy ..whom is oso my dads gd fren asked the boss to give it to my dad
So end up pushing here and there
but end up .. the boss gave the position to another girl.. =.=

ok.. my dad is kind of dumb to do tat.. but i'm sure he have his reasons.. and i totally support him..

But i really dunno how to make him feel better.. this is horrible..

Friday, July 3, 2009

Don't feel like going school

Now that the syllabus is almost gonna be finished.. I really dun feel like going sch..

Firstly.. I dun wanna waste my traveling time=.=. I would rather study alone and consult my teachers if I have any queries or wadsoever..

Secondly.. dun feel like seeing 'them'... zzz.. every time i see them.. it really reminds me of wad they did=.=.. not I dun wanna forgive.. I dun even think its possible.. just like jx can nver forgive me=)

But Hope shes leading a gd life.. a happy 1.. sry girl=)

Budden.. Lol.. cannot.. .. If only can..

But there are things or ppl which I see in sch who really makes me very happy.. FIRST I thought of is Gui Ping alrdy..ROFL.. dunno why.. but her face just give me a very peaceful feeling.. like when nth is gonna be complicated in her world... (GuiPing: ok i know there is ok.. but Just the feeling you give me LOL)

Really feel like got no friends in JJ alrdy.. ~when you are feeling low..

And another person who gives me a rather peaceful feeling Zhi Xin.. LOL! OK i know random.. but she sits at my table .. and every morning i see her blur face coming in with some notes.. and its just dam funny.. LOL... shes also another dan chun 1.. like seriously nth is every complicated.. or is she just blur ? =P .. just know got quite a few ppl likes her.. actually can tell tat shes quite a nice girl.. not very pretty but oso quite decent looking.. ^^ what matters most is shes not flirt and she doesnt tok to guys! not a bad choice folks=P but according to my observations.. its gonna be hell difficult wooing her.. I guess=P unless really got fate LOL.. jy my fren=D LOL (not gonna say who)

Hai.. if only I cld be like 2 of them.. not tat scheming (I really am).. not tat complicated..not that selfish.. not tat self-centred.. I would be so much happier now.. =)

Well to be honest.. things aren't really going well with me and sy..at least tats wad I feel.. I really wish that shes not the kind of girl everybody is telling me.. I'm really willing to give her this trust I have.. and I really hope that she cld be someone who is serious in relationship..

Well.. but if we are really not meant to be.. I'll just wish her all the best=)

Not gonna get hurt in another relationship again.. not tat I'll take it lightly.. its coz.. I believe tat if I really love one person.. its not necessary for me to hold on to her..

Just like how I forced myself to let jx go=)..

*yawns.. time to do other stuffs.. gd bye folks=)

Woohoooo

It actually feels so gd to be able to answer qns in exam.. ok why am I still talking bout studies.. lol.. gonna cherish these 4 days.. THANKS TO MONDAY which is youth day.. omg song!

Hai.. actually .. have been feeling rather empty inside.. sometimes.. =( .. but .. bie ti le=) .. happy thoughts.. happy thoughts..

I wanna be a better person.. I'll work hard towards it.. =)

Now I've 4 differnt goals.. but soon I'll focus it to 1 to if I've tried and realise that I really like it =) I'll succeed .. =)

1st .. I wanna be an actor=)
2nd .. I wanna be a teacher=)
3rd .. I wanna be an engineer=)
4th .. I wanna be a business man=)

Kind of thot tat these 4 are the occupations I like and I hope to have a career in these areas..

=) Shall Work hard towards it.. ! Friends .. wish me well =)

Take gd care everyone=) go bed emo le=() LOL

Yay=D

Yay.. LOL..lol finally I can blog wadever I want without having to care bout those assholes..

zzz.. it was meant to be like this all the while.. now tat only you guys know my blog..=).. which is only a few.. like 5 only.. lol not sure if will have more .. only if ppl ask me den i'll say..

ZZZ... okay.. although finish 3 common test le.. but .. I still feel rather shitty.. coz I think I can do alot better but..=.= zzz

I always say wanna study..but end up always doing last minute work.. esp for Chem.. im so gonna flunk chem like mad.. =.=

Whole holiday only study physics..inspired by Mr Lai =D .. dunno why..maybe Ive been studying Math too much le.. and I believe I've get the concept right le.. but just not use to weird qns asking me weird stuffs.. Z..

But I'll continue to study for all these 3..

Just sort of gave chem up =.= .. dint really give up but studied lesser.. but end up =.= all the J2 chapters come out.. LOL

zzz ok .. lets not tok bout studies now.. shall post 1 more new 1

BYE